let’s face it, there hasn’t been a time in your life where you haven’t wished to “not grow up”! When you think about it, growing up means getting a car, getting an adult job (whatever that is), moving out and having real life responsibilities. Even the word adulthood is pretty scary to me, so I call it ‘adulting’ to seem less daunting. I feel like I am experiencing this fear of adulthood now more than ever as I am close to graduating university. You could say that i’m in the ‘in-between stage’ of finishing school and facing the real world.
To me the most terrifying thing of all is not knowing what’s ahead. Throughout childhood and young adult life, you have your life mapped out, but once university is over and you step into the real world where you have to work and make a living for yourself, you are afraid of not knowing what you will face along the way. Adults have a lot of responsibilities, that’s what makes adulthood so much fun (not really!). Going into adulthood, you have responsibilities like paying bills, buying a car, house etc. I have found that it is super hard to book appointments for myself! Growing up my parents did all that for me, so you can imagine the shock I got when one day my parents said I was on my own now when it came to the dentist, hairdresser, doctor, taxes etc. It was a huge wake up call that adulthood was commencing! I think having all these responsibilities has made me even more scared to grow up because it can be so stressful!
I personally have gotten so used to having my parents, friends and family around me so much that when it is time for me to move on and start my own individual life, I think I will struggle immensely! Separation anxiety will become a real thing and although it scares me, it’s part of life. Change is scary! And let’s face it, sometimes we don’t like to admit it!
While the thought of growing up is scary, we cannot lose sight of ourselves and neglect our youth years. They have shaped us into the young adults we are today!